Ok so this post is not really about hari Raya..... Basically I ate 95% of the cookies and my mum ate 5% yeah enough said.
These days I've even feeling really really down. And I ignored most of my friends , pretty sure they're offended. I'm just really depressed I don't want to talk to anyone. Most of them got offended and stuff , yellow guy is the only one that didn't mind my rudeness and bitchiness , he even comforted me ^_^ what a nice friend xD the one that understood me the most was probably Wilson. Ugh I seriously feel like dying ._. I was practically a living zombie these past few days. When will I get better :( I'm really trying my best! But it's just so hard. I'm trying my best not to go back to the past , where I seek pleasure from hurting myself. I'm really trying to be positive. It's been 3 years already , when will I be free from these negative feelings? Probably never. I should just go back to being emo , although all the harm might stunt my growth and end my life but at least , I was happier ..
From now on , I won't label any posts that is related to my negative feelings so less people would come across it and less people would judge and I'll still have a platform to vent my frustrations. May the world be a happier place <3
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